I made it through childhood and my teenage years, kicking invisible metal rails. I was quiet, shy, and timid - internalizing a lot of anger, disappointment, and frustration. Luckily I fell in love with reading and took in lots of information that helped me see that life had hope. From one day to another, I was suddenly an ‘Adult’. I fell in love and left the country, much to everyone’s surprise, as this ‘shy’ girl wouldn’t even venture into grocery stores alone. Eventually, I did the thing that so long has been expected of us....I got married, began a family, had a house, had a car, had a garden, and stayed home cooking, cleaning, and throwing Halloween parties for my kids and their friends.
After acknowledging that nobody was happy and an intense questioning of the path I was on, I realized it was high time for me to start learning to love and accept myself. Along with a ‘properly timed’ Kundalini (Life Energy Activation) Awakening, my life then began to propel in high tempo.
Acknowledging how sensitive I was to both inner and outer stagnancy, both in myself and others, I decided that I needed to figure out what I could do to lessen the discomfort. Intense internal shifts, releasing, and forgiving, lightened years of ‘baggage’. By transforming past memories, and traumas, within myself and ancestral history, I was freer to do what propels my Inner Self.
The next question was, what does my Inner Self Want to do? What has always brought me and still brings me JOY?
I became aware that my hands and entire body, are tools that can channel higher, clearing energies. And that in fact I, and my body were already doing this, which is a big reason as to why I had been so tired and low on energy for so many years. I was unconsciously taking Energetic ‘heaviness’ from interactions around me, attempting to make the space and relationships around, feel ‘lighter’. Oh, boy was I Kaputt. Since I was a teenager, despite my lack of energy and falling asleep often, in sometimes very loud and uncomfortable places - doctors always said that I was a totally healthy young lady.
Once being infused with these higher, balancing energies, ‘stagnancy’ can begin to clear - creating more space for a recipients emotional, mental, physical, and spiritual wellbeing.
Beginning this path by learning the art of Reiki, I now make myself available for the energy which is all around us to flow - where most needed, for the highest good of the recipient. This is like receiving a dosage of ‘your own’ medicine - one that is tailored specifically to you and your needs. My duty is to put myself to the side, remaining neutral, so that the specific Energetic Flow and vibration that best fulfills your highest needs, can begin to ‘work’ with you.
Possible catalyst. Possible transformer. Possible changer of that which is not seen by the eyes. Light bringer onto that which the mind might find challenging to accept.
My inner world is full of color. I dream intensely, actively, and vibrantly. My inner world is full of emotions, spilling over to help others tap into their own neglected emotions.
I am a Monkey. I am a Pisces with a Libra ascendant. I am fluid water. I am light air.
I am tender. I am gentle. I am compassionate. I am passionate. I am strong. I am intense.
When we work it’s good for you to know that it’s not for the faint hearted. If you are at a crossroads in your life, like I was a few years ago - and feel like ‘Something HAS got to CHANGE.’ We can begin. You have to decide for yourself that at this point of life, that you are absolutely Ready to accept all possible changes towards growth on your path. Those changes may seem like steps backwards from your goal. Even when/if those changes feel like stepping back down 3, 4, even 5 steps on life’s ladder, remember:
The more I worked on myself, the more I began to discover strong and courageous parts myself that were hidden for years.